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Sunday, February 26th, 2006
5:42 pm	Ever Get these feelings.. You ever feel like just dying sometimes...i think everyone does..i mean unless you live a perfect life..an dont want nothing else...which is crazy...I have really bad feelings in my stomach ...about life in general..mostly hs..i need to get through it but its tuff...and...i hate avondale..but hey what can ya do... I need a bf.. or a gf...but my mom says get through school first which is kinda stupid..but its probably a good choice...stay focused on school...but even when i dont have a bf...i aint focused on school either..so yea kinda pointless...I have the boringest life in the world...i really dont do anything at all..i need something fun in my life seriously..its quiet sad..Im having concert withdrawls..havent been to one since november...we've become poor so i can afford to go to any..and it makes me sad..I Need to see bert..but he hasent been to michigan in ages..grr..that dude..such a pain in the butt...just like the rest of them...i think im a asshole magnet..cause they just seem to come to me..an like tare my heart out an stomp on it 23045x times...i like someone right now..but i dunno...THE END.....;heart&   My Friend Alex Did this..isnt it amazing..photoshop...wish i could afford it Current Mood: blah Current Music: Keep it comin- By Love Arcade Look to the sky
Monday, December 12th, 2005
11:26 pm	Gone..... Today...really sucked....jusst thought it was just a little short term thing...but no...it took her life...in the mids of only about 2 hours...im talking about my kitten "Ruby Girl"....Such horrible cancers out there...so distructable...i hate it....i loved her with all my fucking heart..the only one i had to cuddle with....slipped out of my arms and life that quick...Now all i have is a pillow to cuddle with..she wasnt even 1 yrs old...such a short life for such a beautiful creature...the horrroistic cancer she had was lukemia...which really slows such small animals like her down...sucking the life right out of her....No cat could ever replace her....Ever.....R.I.P Ruby Girl December 12,2005.....i will never forget the feeling that was tingling through my body..Im so sad ....she is gorgeous...look at her Current Mood: sad Current Music: depeche mode-Enjoy the silence 1 shooting star ¬ Look to the sky
Saturday, December 3rd, 2005
6:36 pm	Life I love having my best friend being around me alot of time..cause i can have fun...an not think of things i am worried 24/7 about.... I hate school...but i gotta get through it till i cant go through it anymore....if i dont make it...o well atleast i tryed right?...thats what people tell me...i dunno....life seems like one big waste of time...i've never had a bf...who actually really cared...i've only had one..an he broke with me on homecomming night...which is retarted...i think...umm about my dad...he is doing great now...back to his old self...yea....im pissed at him somewhat still...but i love him....the reason im pissed is i was suppose to go to toronto canada with my neighbors to see a depeche mode concert....i have been wanting to go to cananda for ever an a day...an the morning im suppose to go he tells me no...for the stupidest reasons....yea it was bullshit...but i've gotten over it..obviously...im more conccerned about my grades...i gotta get em up...unless i wanna be in hs forever...i feel like i've wasted my whole life slacking..i need to get my butt in gear seriously...two things i want most right now..is good grades and a boyfriend...those two things clash big time..cause if i had a bf...i def. wouldnt be doing good in school cause id wanna be with him all the time...so i thinking about just giving up on..looking for a bf...for now..anyways...well im gonna go...im tired of typing...an i neeed to go do homework..or something...yea...Byee! Cool picture..i like alot Current Mood: blank Current Music: Breaking Benjamin- Rain Look to the sky
Monday, November 7th, 2005
11:30 am	im so fucking screwd i hate life once again...yes i said..even tho i say it every fucking entry i put into this stupid thing...im depressed...an screwd...and i feel like dying...my dad is havin surgery on wednesday....i hope everything goes good...yea he has to get a paste maker..put into his chest...im nervous..:(...an now my dad knows about me skipping school..an having a couple falling grades...im so sad...:(....my sister an best friend cat are really being supportive tho...like gonna help me get through...hopefully...i feel like slitting my wrist...but then that would be like a waste of 17 years...and my parents are to awesome to leave...so i really dont know what to do...:( i cant stop crying...im just gonna go...i dont think any of you really care about whats going on...:(....*Megan* Current Mood: depressed Current Music: Blue And Yellow- The Used 1 shooting star ¬ Look to the sky
Sunday, October 16th, 2005
2:56 pm	Does it matter? I feel like droping everything...an starting all fucking over...i swear....I'll never be fucking happy until...i get to wrap my arms around you... never having to let go....knowing that will probably never happen...i should just.......I Love You. Sometimes I feel like crying Laying down and dying That's when I need you I think your there , but you never are...Once u do get here eventually id be scared you'll leave me That's when I feel emotional You say I'm just incredible Totally fucking rad I'm just a girl..with emotions get use to it No big deal I'm no angel but I can make you smile And that's the way it is That's just the way I am Ill tell you ... I love you I love you Over an over again but thats never enough..to me anyways Why cant we just be happy... why cant you just be happy? Current Mood: sad Current Music: Decade Under the influence-Taking Back Sunday Look to the sky
Wednesday, September 14th, 2005
11:25 am	Umm....yes! score..i dont feel sick this morning for the first time in like a week....i dont understand why i always have stomach aches in the morning....i think its because im not getting enough sleep...im not sure...i didnt eat breakfast this morning so maybe that has something to do with it. No Clue...o well...im having somewhat of a good day so far...o an last night i actually did my home...math homework an understood it...kinda..so that made me happy..if anyone cares...i suppose.... I have a new friend...he is awesome..yep...you know who u r..mr...:)...my friend from ohio might be coming to visit me this saturday...i dunno hmm..im kinda nervous..but excited at the same time...he is gorgeous...alot of people wouldnt probably think so...but i do..he is amazing..he makes me smile..i love it...anyways...yea im gonna go...my hands hurt from typing...See ya around...maybe , maybe not..depends on if i know u personally..lol...*kisses* bye Current Mood: bouncy Current Music: Blink 182- I Miss you 2 shooting stars ¬ Look to the sky
Tuesday, September 13th, 2005
8:59 am	Alot has happened lately...last month...been at the hospital like almost all august..my dad had a heart attack..an now has diabetis...and..got yelled at hardcore...also having to deal with my dads personality changes...with all his medicines..an stuff....its so anoyying...life is shitty..these days...i need a bf..really bad...i need someone to take everything off my mind...this sucks...i know im complaining..about this..i know that things could be alot worse...yes i know..but i am just fusterated....o well..its life...:(...ill deal with it...as u've heard...may just get better after awhile...in a couple weeks, my dad is going back in to have another sugery done..on his heart...which scares me to death...cause i really hope it goes well...*tear* pray for me...if u will...well im gonna go....im bored....bye.... Current Mood: sick Current Music: John Mayer- Your bodys a wonderland 1 shooting star ¬ Look to the sky
Sunday, June 26th, 2005
11:54 pm	sad In your eyes, people can't seem to see anything because your eyes are covered up by tears! You are constantly hurt and depressed... No one seems to understand how you feel because everyone is scared to get close to you... You long to be able to reach out and tell someone everything, and all of your problems... But you have no one to tell, or they just don't seem to want to hear what you have to say. You've been hurt many times that you don't seem to have any tears left to shed, or if you do, they're an endless river flowing... You've started to hide and bottle up all or your problems and feelings, hoping that maybe they just will go away... You want company, but at the same time, you're scared of it. Your sanctuary is your room where you can just be alone and try to throw away all of your aching pains. You're dark and mysterious and people like you for that reason. Even if you think you're all by yourself in the dark, someone is always there with you. Your special someone wants to admit and show their feelings towards you, but they're afraid of how you'll take it. Get out more and enjoy life because, it is far too long to frown your way through :) What Lies Behind Your Eyes? brought to you by Quizilla Current Mood: confused Current Music: taking back sunday Look to the sky
11:41 pm	ehh hmm You are Tater Tots. Go get your own!! Which Napoleon Dynamite character are you? brought to you by Quizilla Current Music: Fall Out Boy- Sugar, We're going down Look to the sky
Monday, June 20th, 2005
12:46 am	You scored as Boobs. You are attracted to: boobs. You're a boob guy/gurl! </td> Boobs 75% Penis 67% Butt 58% Abs/Stomach 42% Face 25% What Body Part Are You Attracted To?(pics) created with QuizFarm.com lol isnt that just great Current Mood: creative Current Music: Relient K- Be My Escape Look to the sky
Monday, May 23rd, 2005
8:39 pm	Hello Hey..people....umm Cats back from tennessee...YAY!....i cant wait till schools out..my cousin jessica's last day was today...she sucks!....i miss kirk..yep..alot...o well..ill be just fine..pretending im not..im far from lonely and its all that i've got..hah...i love the used..they kick ass! Hi..GOODNIGHT GOODNIGHT today..i had a huge rip in my pants..right in the crotch..it kinda sucked..u could see my underwear! not good....im bored...cya Current Music: Sugar, We're goin down- Fall Out Boy Look to the sky
Wednesday, May 11th, 2005
1:42 pm	woohoo im hot Are you hott? by evildj23 First Name Age Guy or Gal Your hottness is 10...WOW! ARE U SINGLE?!?! Quiz created with MemeGen! O yes!! Current Mood: awake Current Music: Holiday by Green Day 1 shooting star ¬ Look to the sky
Tuesday, April 19th, 2005
9:07 pm	haha lovely right Your love is... by ChibiMarronchan Your name is... Your kiss is... breath taking Your hugs are... gentle Your eyes... light up a day Your touch is... heart warming Your smell is... exotic Your smile is... encouraging Your love is... everlasting Quiz created with MemeGen! Current Mood: chipper Current Music: I miss you by Blink 182 Look to the sky
Monday, April 18th, 2005
11:36 pm	cool! You Are Stevo! Which SLC Punk are you? brought to you by Quizilla Look to the sky
Tuesday, April 5th, 2005
9:34 pm	lol How Love-Smart are you? Young Einstein! When it comes to love you know your stuff. It's obvious that you understand how the opposite sex think, what they like and how you can make them happy. Hey why don't you rewrite the book of love! How Love-Smart are you? Find out at DatingTips.ws o yea im good! Look to the sky
8:47 pm	all about me man! About Me o1. What's your name?Megan Newberry oo2. What are your parents' names? Brenda and Jerry oo3. When were they married? 1970's probably...im not sure oo4. Are they still together? Yes oo5. Any siblings?yep 5 oo6. Names? Amanda..my real sis...Kim, Ruth, Jimmy..have different dad...Terry he has a different mom.. oo7. When is your birthday? November, 1st oo8. Do you live in an apartment, house or duplex? a house. oo9. Have you ever moved? nope...been in the same pos all my life o1o. Where do you live now? Rochester Hills m. u. s. i. c. o11. What CD's are in your player right now? The Killers....I love em o12. What types of music do you listen to? I listen to punk....an alil country..an some other stuff o13. What's your favorite song? Caught Fire *by THE USED!!! o14. What radio stations do you listen to? the only new rock alternative....89X o15. What CD do you want to buy as of now? HOT HOT HEAT its coming out on April 6th o and also straylight Run o16. What's the last CD you bought? The Killers o17. What was the last concert you went to? Taste Of Chaos! it was awesome! o18. What do you think of kelly osborne? I love her....people say i look like her all the time..? o19. What's your favorite musical? umm...i dunno o2o. Do you enjoy christian rock? Yep sure do....its good stuff man d. e. s. c. r. i. b. e. o21. Your personality :Really Nice...Cool...Fun...yep..o but shy o22. Your room :: A bit messy right now..im sorrie! i try to keep it clean o23. Your mom :: My MOm IS AWESOMe!....everyone loves my mommy o24. Your dad :: My dad is cool with me.. o25. Your bed :: its a twin bed...an its kinda comfy..i guess... o26. Your last dream :: umm...i went to a concert...i think o27. Your last conversation :: With cat...of course o28. Your outfit right now :: emo tight jeans..lol, white tank top, uhh..an a the used hoodie...thats all im telling! o29. Your morning routine :: i get up just fine thanks! o3o. What you see right now :: umm....the computer screen...wow its bright... - f. a. v. o. r. i. t. e. s.. o51. Number? 7 o52. Food? CHINESE!! yummy o54. Class? I hate school..but im gonna have to say Art o55. Month? July...cause i like how its warm..an the fireworks o56. Soda pop? Coca-cola!...i love it o57. Store? umm...Hot topics...wicked stufff there! o58. Color? Black...but thats not a color..so bright Pink o59. Animal? i like kittens...cause i got the coolest cat in the world...Sid! http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v67/Anticrombiegrl/sid.jpg o6o. Snack? Sour Jelly beans e. n. t. e. r. t. a. i. n. m. e. n. t. o61. Favorite movie? SLC PUNK o62. Favorite actor? Jude Law o63. Favorite actress? i dunno... o64. Favorite TV show? The L Word o65. Favorite Disney movie? Lion King...hehe o66. Favorite cartoon? Jimmy Neutron o67. Favorite book? dont read..lol o68. Last show you saw? umm...a game show o69. Last movie you watched? o7o. Last movie you saw in the theatre? i dont remember...i think alfie! t.h. i. s. o. r. t. h. a. t. o71. AOL // AIM :: AIM ....aol sucks o72. CD // Cassette :: CD for sure...gotta have my music o73. DVD // VHS :: DVD o74. New // Old :: both...if were talkin music... o75. New age // Vintage :: vintage all the way... o76. Day // Night :: both o77. Jeans // Skirt :: Jeans...gotta love em..along with a band tee o78. Summer // Winter :: Summer for sure o79. Britney // Christina ::eww ill pass..there both whores o8o. Alcohol // Weed :: um....neither...ill pass on that one to...but i wanna try weed..haha l. o. v. e. l. i. f. e. o81. Boyfriend / Girlfriend? nope...not realli... o82. Longest REAL relationship? 2 weeks...lol o83. Shortest relationship? 2 weeks.... o84. Farthest you've gone? o you dont wanna know.. o85. First love? umm..devon..lol o86. Last person you dated? devon o87. Last person you kissed? no one o88. Last person you hugged? cat...my best friendhttp://img.photobucket.com/albums/v67/Anticrombiegrl/meancat.jpg o89. Age at first kiss? never been kissed...well 16...if a girl counts... o9o. Age at your last kiss? 16... r. i. g. h. t. n. o. w. o91. What are you doing? talking to friends...an doing this... o92. What are you listening to? Helena By MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v67/Anticrombiegrl/Gerard%20Way%20and%20MCR/My_Chemical_Romance_2004.jpg o94. What are you thinking about? a concert i wanna go to! o95. What are you tasting? my spit...hehe o96. What do you smell? umm...chicken an dumplings...good stuff!..mommas cooking o97. What is black in the room you are in? my hoodies...hanging up o98. What time is it now?its 9:08pm... o99. How long did this take you? like 15 mins -- Current Mood: sick Current Music: Im not Okay! By: My Chemical Romance Look to the sky
Friday, March 18th, 2005
4:51 pm	Holy Hell! I went to taste of chaos right!....it was fucking awesome.....i have like so many feelings for bert mCcracken..its crazy...he is my hero...im inlove..lol but im sure a billion more girls are to...so w/e but anyways....i love going to concerts.....the feeling when i get in the mosh pit is amazing....its so fun~!!!! if i could go to a concert every day i would....for sure...i want to drive....so i can go to some local band shows...i think that would be fun! i need to get out more...get some cool people to hang out with...i have cool friends but they dont wanna ever do anything fun......o well...i still love em....specially cat.....im gonna beat her...dont ask... i need to get layed....lol im jk.....well im gonna go THE USED FUCKING ROCK!!!!!! I LOVE YOUR BERT! Current Mood: bored Current Music: Silver and Cold by afi 1 shooting star ¬ Look to the sky
4:40 pm	lol lovely! How Good are you at Certain Things? Name Age Favorite Color Nickname Sex - 54% Romance - 62% Self - Control - 61% Kissing - 75% Cuddling - 90% Kinkiness - 96% This cool quiz by KillianO - Taken 797257 Times. </a> New - Kwiz.Biz Astrology interesting Look to the sky
Saturday, February 12th, 2005
6:46 pm	ha this is funny! I took this test...The what kinda girl You are test...haha! MS. PERFECT!!!!!!!! You scored 87 looks, 85 personality, 61 politics, and 95 sex drive! You are beautiful, have a great personality, know youre politics, and have a high sex drive. You are the girl of any man's dreams. You know what you are doing in bed, you're fairly conservative, and you know how to treat your loved one. Men have been waiting for a girl like you all their lives. Go out and make some lucky person happy....if you haven't already. Look to the sky
Wednesday, February 2nd, 2005
10:54 am	School... Dude why is school so fusterating...and why are guys so fucking stupid....i mean the older ones are cool...meaning like the 18-21 yr olds...there cool....gah i hate my life...Im in a moody mood lately and its driving me and everyone around me insane...an i dunno what to do. This morning...i told my dad off..an i think i hurt his feelings cause i told him i wanted mom to take me to school..an he was like all sad....i feel really bad....Cause i love my daddy alot alot....im a daddys girl...and im proud of it..hehe...but anyways.... i think ill be ok...i hate only having like 2 friends...i think my old friend doesnt like me anymore...cause she like never talks to me...an i dont know what i did....and my other friend kristina moved...so im kinda upset about that....cause she was realli cool...we had alot in common..and it bugs me..... she switched schools for the same reason i wanna leave this fucking school...cause its a hell hole..an i know everyone else in this school agrees with me. AVONDALE HIGH SCHOOL SUCKS BALLS!! Current Mood: determined Current Music: Hard To Say *The Used* Look to the sky